Realizations

Being a mother of small children there are days when the monotony of the simple things and the vast number of little things needing to be done over and over again really get to me. It's hard to deal with a two-year old's frustrations at the little things and a little one's need to be held or at least within sight at all times. As I was holding my baby today on my lap he smiled at me, not any smile but his special smile reserved for when he is truly happy. That's my favorite part of this phase of his development. He also has an amazing way of letting me know how much he absolutely adores me. That is such an amazing feeling. I wish I could bottle it up and store it away for when he's a teenager and I forget he really loves me.

So to the realization part. I really do love the baby phases and the adventures that come with them. One of my favorite things is to see how they react to new things. For example, my baby discovered his ear last week. It was so funny to see the look on his face of wonder and amazement as he tugged on his ear over and over again. My two-year old has wanted to be held alot lately and I was watching him ask his dad to be held today and realized that not many more years will pass and he won't want to be held anymore. I'll miss him asking to "rock-a-bye" with me.

One of my favorite times of day is bedtime, specifically story time. This is our wind down time the day. When we sit down for stories it seems like the craziness of the day is over and forgotten. All is calm and the boys are very attentive. They never like to miss stories and even the baby has grown accustomed to being read to before going to bed. I'm amazed at how it calms me to sit with them and read. So there are days that my children really run me around and I loose my patience with them but I'm really going to miss this when they get older.